Wednesday, November 13, 2013

I love to learn but I hate college..

College...

It's supposed to be the greatest time of your life right? That's what I thought it would be like, and in the beginning it was. I drank, ate, made friends and was generally a happy kid. Then I realized that I hated what I was doing (education). It wasn't the learning itself, it was everyone else around me with their fake teacher voices, their over-achieving goals and whatnot. In the meantime, I met the love of my life to which I thank for putting up with me. After a long and grueling first year, I decided to pursue the major of nutrition. Three months into school and I love my new major but I hate all the extra crap that I have to learn.
My core nutrition classes are fun but Biology, Chemistry, O-Chem, Microbiology and biochemistry is not exactly what I thought I would be taking. 

So here I am...stuck....loving to learn but hating school. It's like a prison to me. Its too routine, there are too many people with too many opinions and I feel like every single one of them has a goal... What are my goals?? Get married, have kids, have lots of animals, a nice house, and the ability to travel the world. My whole life these have always been mhy goals and not once did I think about where I was going to go to school or what I would major in. I only knew I wanted to have a family. 

But here I am, working my butt off in the same rut that I was in high school and community college. I am tired of trying so hard, stressing out, taking an exam and only doing average. I am tired of getting up everyday and doing the same exact thing. I am tired of being around people who have such amazing goals where mine seem so marginal. And lastly, I am tired of believeing the mentality that everyone has to go to college in order to make something of themselves.

So....what am I left to do? I feel like I'm so far into that I can't dropout. But I hate it, I hate everything about school. I guess I'll keep up with my mundane life as I struggle to complete one of my majors...

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